hungry

I am marginally invested in my life now, not because I am dissatisfied with what I have because I am not but because I am afraid of the things I have- guilt does not equal gratitude, so am I really grateful? -do I understand the magnitude of what leisures with which I am endowed and of what responsibilities I have? I feel grief and guilt for the amazing things with which I am gifted. That's a really stupid reaction, though.
"Don't judge your emotions," is the next common refrain; I have been told this countless times and I listen unconsciously- "but observe them with objectivity."

I have lots of questions, per usual:

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